Mental Strenght

Even if you are unable to lift a brick with your hands, your mind is able to move mountains

You know, having mental strength is something that should never be taken for granted. It´s something you have to pay a high price for most of the time when you obtain that quality for yourself. It´s also something that you need to be able to live with as people will find their way to you when you need to be a pillar of strength for them when they cannot do it themselves or they are too tired to be strong for themselves.

I am a person that has a massive pool of mental strength. I am not bragging with it because I have paid a very high price to grow that quality in myself and I was forced to grow my own strength because I had two choices.. either give up and succumb or fight back with huge force and keep myself sane. Trust me if I wouldn´t have done the latter I would either be in jail or in a mental institution as a patient.

You can also abuse that mental strength to do harm to people, to manipulate and hurt them and your mental strength would be a destructive force and would morph into something evil. Using it for a good purpose you can actually help people and be the solid ground for them to stand on and according to my own personal point of view, people who have that strength are here for others in that way. Also the strenght comes with some "accessories" in a way :) I for example know that my ambitious nature stems from the fact that I am mentally strong, I know that my confident nature comes from that, and my wit, yes I can be witty too :-D

I know that mentally strong people act pretty friendly to people and are often seen as a bit goofy if not even a bit deranged and stupid but you will see another side when you take a stab at their loved ones or themselves or of these people see something that they think is utterly evil.

I come from a background where I suffered tremendously in the hands of my father who mentally and physically abused me, my brothers and my mother. I lived with a person who was an alcoholic and a narcissistic psychopath. Later on I was put down in multiple ways, bullied at school, told that I cannot be anything and told that the apple doesn't fall far from the tree.. boy did I prove them wrong :-D I won't go deeper into my past as it´s not the point in this blog post but i´ll say this: Don´t ever feel sorry for me, I don´t and I don´t dwell in my past and I am at the point where I am actually grateful for the bad experiences because those too have molded me into the person I am today, the person I was meant to be, the person I respect and want to be. A good example of this is, that when I finally got everything sorted in my own head and found the strength to move on, grow and let go I had a dream of me as the adult I am meeting the girl I was. The adult me found itself as a little girl, scared, abused, destroyed in a corner crying in a dark room, the adult me lifted the little girl me into her arms, held her tight, stroked her hair and told her "that you don´t have to be afraid anymore, I will make sure that you are safe now" and after that we were surrounded by light and the little girl me smiled at the adult me and they were morphed into one.. I woke up and felt a lot better because I think that was the point when I came into terms with my own past and the person I have become and my mental strength comes from all that.

The point is, every person has a trait that can be used for the good of others. The people that has mental strength should use it for support and fighting back the "machine".

hmm a good part of a song to quote at the end. Ill Nino - Scarred

I wear the scars

I will not walk away
I will never give in
I'll wear the sin
But not within
I will bury the scars
I will rise once again
I'll break away
I won't give in

Life Online

Yes, you got it.. I got annoyed by something "again" :-D

ok so social media is the topic of the day so let´s get started.

Social media is a fantastic way to stay in touch with people abroad and a great way to meet new people and discuss with them, get your own opinions ideas etc out there. I for example have a lot of friends who currently live abroad, either I've met them through my job, they have moved from Finland to another country or they for some reason currently just reside abroad.  Being in touch through social media is cheaper than most other ways, it´s faster and you don´t have to check out the time zone to contact someone because they will see your msg or comment when they check their own page / profile whatever. I wouldn´t have time to exchange 3 hour phone calls because I, like most people have a life outside the world wide web.

I personally prefer twitter because you can just throw a fast update or comment, shout out etc.. when you feel like it and because I spend most of my days on my pc at work anyways because I am in international trade and sales so exchanging stuff online is what my work day is mostly filled with. Also you can check stuff on twitter too. I use Youtube a lot too because I want to listen to music when I work or listen to a documentary etc.

But as with all things there is a downside to my life online that annoys the h*** out of me sometimes. Every once in a while I get these personal messages and I like to talk to new people so I always reply. Then when you have been talking to someone for a while suddenly a msg pop´s up on your twitter account asking to get a picture of your private parts and a question "are  you tight?" to accompany the request or you get an online sex invitation or an invitation to see you nude on cam or something really disrespectful like that. Now im going to list out why this annoys me so much.

1. I don´t have a nude pic of myself as a profile pic, do I? So why the hell would I send one to you by request?
2. I haven´t promoted my profile as a "get-a-pic-of-my-p***y" profile now have I? So why would you think I would send you a pic?
3. I haven´t stated anywhere that I am looking for online sex now have I? so why do you assume I would like to do that?
4. I´ve known you for 2 minutes now, why would you assume that I want you to see my intimate parts? I haven´t promoted that anywhere either now have I?
5. Where the hell does it say associated with Redtube on my profile? no where... get it??
6. "come on, I will show you mine first" ... *rolls eyes* did I ASK to see yours? no? so why  would I want to see it ?

I think it´s perfectly ok for people to ask about stuff from me, rather that than assuming things or profiling me automatically with 3 tweets and a pic. But when someone has sent you 10 messages in total I don´t think it´s respectful to ask these kinds of things, this all comes down to something I've written about before -> MANNERS!! if you are doing this.. where is your manners? go out and buy a magazine or click to the free porn sites that you can find via google etc.. just don´t come back and ask shit like this from me ok?

as a closing I would like to say that I love sex, I am not shy about it nor my body and I rather have sex with the lights on and show everything and I will stare into the eyes of my partner etc.. but I do not appreciate this sort of disrespectful behavior .. period..

Be a good example

You know it´s really sad to read about crap that teenagers and kids have to go through because of the example that the current society portrays to them and we as the adults are responsible for that example as we should be able to control the feed.

I don´t even know where to start properly with this post..

First of all the media portrayed image of what you should look like. I hate it when the pressure is created in these fashion magazines and the media gives the impression out that you cannot be accepted as you are, by the way YOU WANT to look like. I mean you should dress a certain way, do your make-up in a certain way, you should style your hair in a certain way, you should act the certain way, otherwise you will be discriminated and you will be an outsider for the rest of your life and when it´s repeated again and again that makes it true because the way the teenage culture and well, social culture in general is brainwashed will make it happen, then the culture is molded into that specific way and people start to believe they shouldn't tolerate someone who is "different" and then the person really becomes an outsider.. I hope you are following my thought here.. Why is it so hard for people to reject the thought´s that are being fed from the ever-so-controlling media to us? Everyone has the right to look like they want without the extra criticism being thrown around. It´s a persons own choice to dress the way they want to, to do their hair like they want to choose if they want to go ahead with cosmetic surgeries etc.. I haven´t had a surgery and it wouldn´t fit me cause im happy with myself with the "flaws" and everything. Every person is a portrait of themselves, they way the view the world, what they themselves think as beautiful.

The other thing that I have been thinking about for a while now, people are being pushed into molds in the way that they should do just certain things if they are a part of a specific social category, I will give an example about this so maybe it´ll open my view a bit: for example when I was a teenager I was a vocalist in a HC metal band and after band practice I went to a dance practice -> I was in a Hip Hop dance crew, see? now most of you will realize where im getting at. You are told that you can only choose one thing from a specific culture and not mix it up... uhm why? it´s all about expanding your own world and getting good experiences, in my mind this can be seen in the same way as racial discrimination. The way some people tell you that you can´t have a mix-marriage for example, well why the hell not? (*slapping her own wrist* excuse me for the choice of words...) I think it´s a good comparison, why should you have to choose or just stay in your own social area or race? hmm? we are all the same and all the races and cultures in the world is the end result of that simple fact.. WE ARE ALL THE SAME.. that applies for the social culture too, it all started from people and if we are all the same why shouldn´t you mix things up? By mixing different experiences you will end up learning a lot about yourself and by developing yourself you will be more confident with who you are and you will be more merciful and loving to yourself and being that to yourself you can be that to other people too and by doing that you will be a good example, think about it..

Make your own choice, do you want to be remembered as a "blind follower" or as an awesome personality who was a good example how you can be yourself and appreciate other people?

Zombiewalk 2013

Ok so, this time around I thought I would write about an event, basically because this was the first z
Zombie walk in Vaasa and it´s fantastic we made it happen..

First with some facts so you´ll get the idea of the actual size of the event -> Vaasa is a coastal city of Finland with approx. the population of 65 000 so it´s not big ( cities in Finland rarely are :-D ). the area of Vaasa is 397.44 km² (153.45 sq mi) so if you look at the population VS the area you´ll notice that people live far away form each other basically and the inhabited areas are sparse.

So the event itself was a success. the total headcount is not confirmed yet but there were approx. over 100 people attending so that was a fantastic thing since usually the people around here are hard to attend to any sort of events like this. The whole thing started from Facebook, I got a request from a friend to join in and I was more than happy to, after about a week there was still wall post that actually started just out from a joke that we should dance thriller at the marketplace at the end of the walk, well people were into that too, there were approx. 30-40 dancers in the flash mob, so thinking about the size of Vaasa and the "enthusiastic" people around here that was a lot :-D

So, the next step was given to all dancers -> study the thriller moves from the Michael Jackson short film, well everyone did but it turned out that the original routine was quite hard for some people so we went for a simplified version ( this can be found on Youtube too as the thriller flash mob tutorial ). First practice sessions were arranged and the last practice was held a day before the event 27.9.2013.  so.. on Saturday 28.9. the actual event took place. Started out at 3 o´clock with make-up sessions with some pro. make-up artists, I had a cut done with some blood coming out of it with latex on my cheek and my son wanted a small cut on his cheek, our faces were painted white and shaded with some black eye shadow etc. that was cool, the only problem with the latex was that it wanted to get stuck in my hair :-D but thankfully it didn´t destroy the make-up.

17:45 it was time to head out, pack ourselves to the car and drive to the meeting point, to our surprise there was a lot of zombies already waiting and we realized that the attendance was going to be higher than what was expected ( In Vaasa you are lucky if 20  people from the original 200 that signed up will show ) 141 originally signed for it and like I wrote earlier, the headcount  was over 100. We realized that there were a lot more people that wanted to attend the flash mob than we saw in the sessions so we had a last practice session at the beach at the meeting point.

18:00 it was time to get the show on the road so we walked a long route, there was a massive audience on the streets everywhere we went so the attendance level of the whole event went up with a 100 souls at least so that was cool, there were a lot of people taking pics and videos. all of the zombies were really living it up and scaring people who were watching and scaring the cars parked in the traffic lights and you could see that the viewers also enjoyed it.

We finally got to the market place ( our final destination for the night) waited for all of the zombies to reach the place and when we had a full headcount the Thriller was played from a car built as a boom box, seriously these guys had a great sound system in the car. oh and it was the single version.
Dancing went really well and we had a little freestyling session in the middle of the song ( 3rd verse ) and everyone came up with cool moves and acting for that bit :) Annoyingly I haven´t gotten any video yet of the dancing just a few pics

the first pic on-top is of the mob, anyways here is a link for a picture gallery and a link for a video clip too.

pics: http://ossinyqvist.com/zombie-walk-vaasa-2013/
Video ( the story is in finnish but click on the videos to see them, these were in the local newspaper): http://www.pohjalainen.fi/uutiset/maakunta/zombiet-valloittivat-keskustan-kadut-katso-video-1.1471248